And suddenly you are there.
And we talk.
And I get drawn in as you make me feel light.
And for a moment I forget that actually nothing is right.
And I forget what the loneliness feels like.
Until you suddenly disappear again.
And I never know when you will be back.
And I don’t know why you are gone or for how long.
And my mind starts racing again.
And images build up in my mind.
And they drive me mad.
Until I decide that we should not talk.
And I fight and explain and decide.
And I know it is right, ‘cause you’ll never be mine.
And I suffer, ‘cause I miss you.
And my head wants to win.
And my heart very slowly starts to heal.
Until you are suddenly there again.
And it all starts anew.